How does these three relate to each other?

Hmmmm… Well for me I think they’re related in a sense that when you love someone, you get to have sex with him or her. And when you get sex at times you’ll really feel lust on you. So I think they’re related to each other.  lol..I don’t know what I’m talking about…OMG!

Falling in love with a hot guy and not feeling good about it is just not gonna work. My boyfriend is a basketball player. A varsity player when he was in high school and college. I just hate the feeling of being insecure. And I really don’t want to feel worried about anything. I do love him. But at times i just can’t help but think that he have another girl, or is dating another girl or girls… He is just too much for me to handle…I just want to forget about him and get on with my life.

He had so many lies to me, and i just knew about it because of my friends. I was so mad at him when I found out about it. Don’t worry he is not married. He lied about his name. OMG! I was so so so mad at him that time, I confronted him about it and he said he was sorry but after that I don’t know if I should still be believing in whatever he tells me about himself.

It was near Valentines day, and i asked him if he would buy flowers for his girlfriend. He said he would but then asked if his girlfriend wont mind if he buys him flowers. So I said what kind of girl would that be if he wont appreciate the flowers you’re gonna be giving her. On that weekend we decided to meet up and get a drink. I asked him again if he is gonna buy the flowers, he said his girlfriend might not like it, I said why not? He said because you’re my girlfriend and I’m going to give you the flowers you’re selling me. And I was like Oh what? I thought I am not your girlfriend, he told me before on text that I am his girlfriend but I thought it was just girl friend. Not a lover. but anyways, we talked about future and he said he will wait for me and I just don’t know if I could really do it. I wish he is gonna be my hubby but I think its just gonna be a dream. Oh rock! I wish i can really have you! I’d be so happy to have you forever.

I’ve been holding on to a relationship that I know that will never have a guarantee that it will work out. We were friends for two years before we became lovers. It was all fun for the first two or three months. and after that it became complicated to handle. There are so many quotes I know about love. But none I ever manage to keep. I always try to hold on with our relationship, even if its the last thing i should be doing. Several months have passed again and still I’m trying to hold into the relationship I want to work out. It never is easy if you’re the only one holding on, while the other keeps on bragging about parting ways. He is mostly hot headed and high pride. I am always the one trying to make him calm and always patient to make things go as easy as it should be. Not until today that I realize I need to think about myself and to really let him go. It was never that easy. I cried and cried and cried because I don’t want to loose him but then it’s way too much. For two days we didn’t talked nor message each other. And when he texted me a message about love and friendship. I replied to him saying that I am thankful for everything he’ve done for me and for whatever reason i should be thankful about him. He told me he is going online so i said okay let’s chat and see each other on cam. At first I thought it was over for me crying but when I saw his face. I found myself crying. He calms me down but I don’t know why tears just fall that much. after 30 minutes we bid our goodbyes and then he called me and he cried. He said he was sorry to hurt me a lot of times and that he still love me so much and missed me a lot. I told him it’s okay I understand, I just have one favor to ask. Don’t leave me, even just as a friend.

For now we still constantly chat and talk on phone, it’s as if we are still on with each other. We still say I love you’s and I miss you’s to each other. He still calls me baby and i still call him that.  I  just hope that in time I will handle when he will really be gone not forever but as my loved one.