Falling in love with a hot guy and not feeling good about it is just not gonna work. My boyfriend is a basketball player. A varsity player when he was in high school and college. I just hate the feeling of being insecure. And I really don’t want to feel worried about anything. I do love him. But at times i just can’t help but think that he have another girl, or is dating another girl or girls… He is just too much for me to handle…I just want to forget about him and get on with my life.

He had so many lies to me, and i just knew about it because of my friends. I was so mad at him when I found out about it. Don’t worry he is not married. He lied about his name. OMG! I was so so so mad at him that time, I confronted him about it and he said he was sorry but after that I don’t know if I should still be believing in whatever he tells me about himself.

It was near Valentines day, and i asked him if he would buy flowers for his girlfriend. He said he would but then asked if his girlfriend wont mind if he buys him flowers. So I said what kind of girl would that be if he wont appreciate the flowers you’re gonna be giving her. On that weekend we decided to meet up and get a drink. I asked him again if he is gonna buy the flowers, he said his girlfriend might not like it, I said why not? He said because you’re my girlfriend and I’m going to give you the flowers you’re selling me. And I was like Oh what? I thought I am not your girlfriend, he told me before on text that I am his girlfriend but I thought it was just girl friend. Not a lover. but anyways, we talked about future and he said he will wait for me and I just don’t know if I could really do it. I wish he is gonna be my hubby but I think its just gonna be a dream. Oh rock! I wish i can really have you! I’d be so happy to have you forever.